Tri-Trip Playlist

It's been a little while hasn't it. November 5, 2007—I'm getting my priorities straight. I've been feeling in a rut for a while now. Not taking time for myself has taken a toll. Realizing this, I have been fighting to get my life back. You know it is sad when people ask how you are, what's new in your life, and all you can respond with is how work is going. Creativity had become almost an impossible feat for me. Realizing this was half of it.

The past week or two I have been trying to get myself on a schedule. Waking up early, taking time for myself, for a relationship with my God, and taking the time to clear my head before each day starts has helped. Going to bed before 11 p.m. has become an important aspect of my new schedule. The days are going by fast, but I feel so much better. I am able to think straight, set my priorities and goals. I am realizing what I need to do, where I need to be.

I am not necessarily happy here at this school, but I'm here for the rest of this year so I am going to make the best of it. After this year I have another 2.5 quarters worth of credits until I could graduate. Even if I were to stay here, I don't think I would have made the connections I need to make to get a semi-successful first job. I am not getting the best education, or even a satisfactory education within my major here. I am really starting to look at transferring to Portland State or UW or someplace cheaper, with slightly better academics, and where I could make connections in a city of my choice. I might have to go to school a bit longer to meet requirements, but I wouldn't be going as deep into debt as if I would if I stayed here. I am school shopping. I work too hard to get such a lack-luster education with not so good grades. Going to a less expensive school would lessen the stress I often feel. I wouldn't have to work quite as hard, and if I did, I could at least start saving some money or paying off loans.

Driving to tri-cities and talking with a good friend about her life really helped me put mine into perspective. I feel so tied down right now—with my senior project, work, and school. Things will be changing. I just need to focus on that. This has been a huge rant. I just wanted you to know what is going on.

In other news, my dad has been having heart problems. This past week has been a little trying on me. I lost it while working on my action script the other day. I really wanted to burn my book! It would have made me pretty happy. Anyways, things with my dad will hopefully be okay. He took a lot of tests this past week, and his heart is clear, not diseased. It is just really weak from long term exposure to high levels of carbon monoxide at his work—which he refuses to leave. I had a really long talk with him the other day. I got a bit frustrated with him. He is a dreamer, which is good, but I am too much of a realist. At some point in the conversation he said that rather than leave his job to get a safer, higher paying job, he wants to become a mountain tour guide, and a ski instructor. He does not ski, and his heart is not strong enough to do the hiking thing. I get really upset when he goes off on these impossible, unrealistic tangents. I really worry about him. I do love him. Please keep him in your prayers.

We made a great playlist for our tri-trip. Here's what I have been stuck on music-wise this past week:

Travis - 'my eyes'
Mario - 'how do i breathe'
The Fratellis - 'chelsea dagger'
Metro Station - 'shake it'
Sigur Ros - 'saeglopur'
Clap Your Hands Say Yeah - 'the skin of my yellow country teeth'
The Feeling - 'love it when you call'
Nelly Furtado - 'promiscuous'
CSS - 'alala' and 'music is my hot hot sex'
Anti-Anti - 'snowden'
New Young Pony Club - 'ice cream'
Telépopmusik - 'breathe' (radio edit)
Radiohead - 'idioteque'
Patrick Wolf - 'the magic position'
Regina Spektor - 'fidelity'
Art Brut - 'bang, bang, rock and roll'
Daft Punk - 'one more time'
The Decemberists - 'summersong'
Bishop Allen - 'rain'
Paper Route - 'are we all forgotten'

Enjoi.